I was then 13 and my parents and my parents had just divorced .

I wanted to know what will happen to me after death. I thought that I will die young and there is no bright and promising future for me.

When I was a child I went with my grandmother to Lutheran church and I was also baptized there.

Every night I prayed the prayer my grandmother had taught me:" Take me under your wings, gracious, dear Jesus. Pour  mightily your grace and your Spirit on me!"

I knew that God exists, but I imagined Him as a grim Heavenly Father, Who was ready to punish us for all our misdeeds. I couldn't imagine myself having a personal relationship with Him and  Jesus as my best friend .

As the result of my parents divorce I had lost a person who had always protected me.

I felt Gods call  in my heart at this period of my life. One day my cousin asked me to come with her to a bible lessons in the church of Oleviste.

I didn't understand what dragged me there, but from this time on I started to visit the church of Oleviste regularly.

It was hard to understand everything the sermon, but I experienced something warm and good in these songs.

Very soon I gave my life to Jesus and asked Him to come into my heart and forgive my sins.

I threw out of my house all horoscopes, cards( that I used for fortunetelling), ungodly literature for I didn't need them anymore!

After 1 year I was baptized biblically (like Jesus was baptized).

I have felt Gods help and seen His miracles in my life and in the lives of my fellow-men. He lives! And He takes part in my everyday life. I found a new father in God!

When I look back I see, that life as a Christian isn't easy, but there's always  help and exit guaranteed.

I encourage everyone who feel alone and rejected, that there's Someone (Jesus), who cares for you and is waiting for you with open arms.

He is the Beginning and the End, He is the Creator and Ruler of all! Every situation is at first weighed before His throne and then sent to influence our life.

The words of Basilea Schlink: " My Father, I don't understand you, but I trust you." have  helped me through these years.

Trust Him, He will never let you down!

In His love,

sister Abigail