There is a struggle for the true calling

When our church was just beginning, in 1995, there were about 20 people in the hall instead of 800 people, and it all looked very pitiful. I knew that I was called to participate in the rise and development of this church, I had a direct word from the Lord. But when I faced reality, I saw that before the time when everything blooms and smells sweet, I have to go through no one knows how many trials. When it seemed that the situation clearly did not correspond to those prophecies and the expectation that I had, I felt like a victim of circumstances, I wanted to feel sorry for myself and even more – to run away from responsibility.

If you know, at least roughly, what your calling is and take steps in this direction, this does not guarantee that you will succeed right away. On the contrary, most likely, if this is really your calling, then there will be something interesting. Because there is a real struggle for a real vocation. Because we all enter our calling unprepared. I don’t know any of God’s children who began to do something in line with their calling from God, and immediately the sea parted, demons sat on the sides of the road and only groaned, people fell in piles under the influence of power, and he himself walked, as if on clouds. No one is ready.

Entering a calling is a struggle, first of all, with oneself, with one’s unpreparedness, with one’s wrong expectations. You think: “I read the Bible, listened to sermons, heard someone’s examples. I know step number 1, number 2, number 8…” And then the first step begins, and it generally goes in the wrong direction.

Even if God has prepared us well, He always leaves room for surprises. He wants us to not feel like professionals in our calling. We must be professionals in those areas that require professionalism, but in following God we must remain “amateurs”, relying on and depending on Him every day.

Secondly, entering into a calling is a struggle with our self-pity, with our disappointments that flow from self-pity and with our wounded pride. I thought, “Is this the church that the Holy Spirit spoke to me like that about? Well, this is embarrassing!” By that time, I already felt like a cool minister. I thought that if people looked at my ministry, I would fall in their eyes. And my pride told me: “Run away from here, don’t disgrace yourself!”

And so I fought, as it turned out, on the side of the one who wanted to lead me astray from God’s path. Because these feelings and thoughts were thrown to me by the enemy. And he knows: if you really went to the line of your calling, it is dangerous for him. He knows that if these guys really understand how God leads them, and they put their strength, their gifts, talents, their faith into this main thing, then hard times will come for his satanic plans in this particular area.

By Boris Grisenko / https://www.facebook.com/boris.grisenko

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