I remember being in second grade and sleeping in my attic bedroom. I felt lonely, scared and separated from my mother, stepfather and brother – my own father’s son.
I remember being in sixth grade and feeling too fat and awkward for anyone to love me. It seemed to me that I could never get a guy’s attention or heart.
I remember going to high school, but instead of being in class, I sat at home, depressed and pregnant. My boyfriend already had another girlfriend. I wondered if there was a man who would love me and my child.
And in each of these periods of my life, I prayed. I was praying for someone to belong. I prayed to be chosen. I prayed to be worthy of a lasting relationship.
I forgot about those times until this morning when I read from the Bible about Joseph who was imprisoned in prison. Joseph did nothing wrong.
God even gave him the opportunity to interpret the dreams of the chief baker and cupbearer. Joseph asked only one thing: not to be forgotten. He just wanted the people he helped to remember him and offer their help in return. But that did not happen.
And the chief butler did not remember Joseph, but he forgot him. (Gen. 40:23)
Joseph may have felt forgotten for a while, but God remembered him. God knew exactly where Joseph was. God was with him, and when the time came for the king’s ministry of Joseph, God helped the chief butler also remember him, and within a few days Joseph moved from the prison cell to the palace chambers.
Do you feel forgotten?
Have you prayed for belonging? Have you prayed to be chosen? Have you prayed for a spouse, a child, or a long-awaited dream come true?
People can forget. You can throw your prayers into the far corners of your memory, but God remembers.
We need to trust God even when we feel forgotten:
Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior. (Hab. 3: 17,18)NIV
And while waiting, have the faith to look ahead:
“The days are coming,” declares the Lord “when the reaper will be overtaken by the plowman and the planter by the one treading grapes. New wine will drip from the mountains and flow from all the hills,(Am. 9:13) NIV
Feeling forgotten? God remembers.
Feeling lonely? God remembers.
Does it seem to you that someone who should be on your side has a different point of view? And here is the Lord.
Turn to Him. Keep praying. At the right time, God’s time will come and His purposes will become visible. You will reap a harvest of blessings in a way you never imagined during your days of loneliness and silence.
So what about you? When was this time when you felt forgotten? How did God show himself to you?
By Tricia Goyer
Translation – Alex Fishman